"Not Quite Yet, My Child. Not Quite Yet."

It's early morning and I'm mulling over a Midwifery Unschool website. Ready to click the button and become a midwifery student. 

"Not quite yet, my child. Not quite yet."

I close down the browser. Slightly annoyed. Slightly relieved. Full of questions. Full of doubt. Full of anticipation. Full of excitement for all the burning passions within my soul. 

God is giving me beautiful lessons in taking my time in creation. A lesson in patience as he (very) slowly hands me each piece of the puzzle and guides me in where it belongs. A lesson in waiting on Him to speak and tell me my next move. He has given me so many visions of what He has in store for me and the path in which He is calling me down. But the anticipation is something I'm being called to sit with. Each time I feel I've drained every nook and cranny within me on website design, but it's not finished yet, I'm reminded that He will build and create His plan for my life on His time and according to His will. 

Much like it takes time to knit together a new creation within its mother's womb; I'm reminded that it takes time to build, create, knit together. Suddenly, one day, when all the knitting and building and creating is finished, a cocktail of hormones will trigger labor to begin and the birthing a brand new life will ensue. In His perfect timing. 

As I hold my brand new five month old early this morning, nourishing him with the same body in which God knit him together, I'm washed over with peace. I don't have to have it all figured out right now. I don't have to sign up for all the classes right now. One piece of the puzzle at a time is how the masterpiece is created. I use the puzzle metaphor because I can actually accomplish puzzles, I do not have a single lick of talent for painting. 

So each time He's asked me to pickup the website, put some additional pieces in place and then lay it down again, I have nothing to do but to obey. Forcing the design drains my energy. I'm in a season where I just cannot spend my energy forcing anything. I'm being called back into birth work and little bits at a time, God has placed a woman in my life to support. Little bits at a time, God has given me the scripture, the quotes, the pictures and the words to shape and design my website, my services and new endeavors He has revealed to me within His plans. 

I'm a 5-Minute-Craft type of gal. I like to come across an idea, be full of inspiration and motivation, get started AND finish all in a day's work. But God has me sitting and waiting while He reminds me that His plans will play out according to His will and in His timing. 

My body cannot conceive and grow an entire human being in one day. My breasts cannot produce 10,000 ounces of breastmilk in one day. My body and mind cannot heal past traumas and injuries in one day. It takes time. 

God will build every business endeavor He puts in my path. Would I even want it if it wasn't built by God anyhow? The simple answer is no. 

All in His time and all for His glory.