Be Wild and Free

When do you know it's time? When do you know you're satisfied when you know it's your last time experiencing this moment? When do you tell yourself that you have to stop? When do you know you're ready to say 'see you later?'  You don't. At least that's the conclusion I've come to. You just don't know, you just do it. Because not doing it is just delaying the inevitable. So you savor every single milisecond of that moment. You soak it all into every fiber of your being. You put a permanent hold on that smell, that feel, that sound so you'll never, ever forget it. Never have I ever had a ride so full of tears. So flooded with emotions and memories. Never have I ever watched the last 26 years flash before my eyes while the wind blew through my hair and the warmth of my gelding radiated around me. Never has one moment been so full of love, memories, smiles, laughter, sadness. Never has my face been so drenched in tears but my heart full ...

I've deleted this post to start over several times now... I just don't know where to begin. I've neglected my blog for a very long time and I'm resolving to change that. I've had a lot on my mind and I know writing it out will help me further process everything and find 100% clarity. Sometimes we find ourselves at a fork in the road. You can go to the left which leads you down a scary path you're not quite sure you're ready to endure... To the right, it's full of familiarity, safety, no pain or heartache... But, if you go down that path, you're also "stuck" in your present and not able to focus on your dreams for the future. Folks. I'm there. Actually, I've been here, stuck at this fork in the road, for over two years. How do you admit to yourself that your passion for something is dying? You love it. You care for it. You enjoy it... but your intense passion is dying. How do you admit it? How do you face it? How do you put yo...